Thursday, January 24, 2008

Dead but Alive!

"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20 NIV

Do you ever have trouble wrapping your mind around a verse or passage in the Bible? I do and this is one of them. If I read it quickly, I recognize the theology that comes from it and agree; but when I start looking more closely I begin to wonder, What does Paul mean, "I have been crucified with Christ"? I haven't been nailed to a large pillar of wood and left to die.

And yet I do comprehend the idea that "I no longer live, but Christ lives in me." I think I'm going to post in this blog a short version of part of God's story in me but for now I will share only a teeny portion.

A woman came into my life a number of years ago and made my heart sing. I loved and adored her (and I still do) but the time came when I had to choose between her and God. It was not an easy decision and as I chose God, I felt like I was dying. In a very real way I did die that day for I relinquished what I had spent my whole life looking for. But that death made space in me for Jesus, for him to take control in a way I had never allowed before.

In my prayer room is a large acrylic painting with the cross in the centre. Flowing out from the centre of that cross is a large gush of primary colours. To me they represent the life Jesus is giving me out of his death. One of my little rituals is to pour myself a goblet of grape juice and as I drink it I visualize this life of Christ's flowing out of him as he died on the cross and flowing into me and I pray, "Lord, fill me with your life; fill me with your Spirit! Produce in me love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control." (Galatians 5:22, 23a)

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