Saturday, July 26, 2008

Captain of my Soul?

“The Spirit of God is everywhere, would that men would yield to Him! The reason we do not yield is that in the deep recesses of our hearts we prefer the captaincy of our own lives, we prefer to go our own way and refuse to let God govern.” – Oswald Chambers*

It’s much easier and safer to go my own way. At least that’s the way it seems. Yielding to the Holy Spirit and letting God govern carries a lot of risk and there are times that I want the comfort and familiarity of what I know—even when my head and God’s Spirit tell me that the risk of obeying God is far safer than the safety of what I’ve always done.

Why do I so stubbornly resist when I know from experience how much better are God’s ways than mine? I’m so easily deceived—willingly deceived because, though I know that God is infinitely trustworthy, I am afraid to trust him. I have built walls to protect myself from hurt. Is it truly safe to let God dismantle them? Can I lower them, stone by stone as God’s Spirit prompts me despite my fears?

God, I want the life you promise to those who follow you instead of their own inclinations but when it comes down to the crunch, I often choose my ways instead of yours. Forgive me, God! Create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me. Don’t throw me away from your presence, please. Keep me steadfastly listening to and obeying you. Only you can enable me to want you and your ways. Please give me a willing spirit in all ways at all times.º

* "With Christ in the School of Philosophy” in “Biblical Ethics” in The Complete Works of Oswald Chambers page 124.
º Prayer based in part on Psalm 51.

1 comment:

Samantha said...

So very true--we cling to the familiar rather than looking to God and living.

Thanks for your post today. I needed to remember.