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Not Doing Well

I'm not doing well.  Has the grief finally hit?  Perhaps.  I'm doing nothing much other than sleeping, I have no energy and I haven't been out of the house since returning from Vancouver except to see the doctor once.  I would appreciate your prayers.  Thank you.

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Harmony said…
Hello Debbie,

My husband and I continue to pray for you and your family.

Each person is unique in the way they deal with grief and you have had much to do and prepare for since Mikael's death; your attention has been focused on getting chores and tasks done first for his funeral and then for your other son's wedding. Now you can relax and with that will come the flow of grief that you have had to put aside until now.

Remember that God is with you every step of the way and that He wants to take your burden. He is with you in this valley. Believe it, know it, and embrace His presence.

Grief has many manifestations and doesn't occur in any systematic order. My sense is that you are so "other focused" that you have likely been propping others up. Now it is your time to rest, heal and abide in God's care.

Take care
Your sister in Christ
Shirley (aka Harmony)
Thank you, Shirley. I know that everything you said is true and I know that God is with me. Couldn't do it without him. You're right about the uniqueness of grief for each person. Tom's grief is tied into his thoughts and emotions. Mine is much more physical, as if my mind can't or won't touch it, so it gives it to the body to deal with. It's certainly interesting to watch the differences. Thanks for the encouragement to rest, heal and abide in God's care.

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